Happy Friday!!

Hello friends!

It is a beautiful Friday morning here in Portsmouth and I am LOVING it. I have finished my second year of college (crazy right? I can’t even) and am relaxing before I begin my internship with the Portsmouth Herald. My first day will be Monday June 10th. It’s coming up fast and I don’t know whether I want to do my happy dance or go hyperventilate in a corner. On one hand, I CANNOT BELIEVE I get to work with journalists and learn from them and I’m super excited. On the other hand, I have never met any of these people in my life (aside from my editor who interviewed me) and if you know me, you know that that gives me SO MUCH ANXIETY! I want to make a good impression and hopefully get an offer for a job when I graduate, which I know is not highly likely, but hey, a girl can dream can’t she? Any-who, I’m glad that I will be doing something this summer. I have been SUPER board and because I can’t drive, it makes it even more boring because I can’t get out without requesting a ride from the COAST ADA bus. That’s fine, but it’s a pain because I have to pay and I have to plan ahead so I can’t just decide I wanna go out that day and just go, I have to schedule at least 24 hours in advance. Having friends who can drive is great, except for when they all go home for the summer which defeats the purpose (lol just kidding I love all my friends, but it would be nice if they lived closer, not just because they can drive, although that is a bonus).

I have found out that I enjoy being around people, even if I’m not out with anyone, just being surrounded makes me feel slightly less alone. However, I can feel completely alone in a room full of people, but that’s besides the point right now. I am naturally a home-body and like to stay in my little bubble which is usually just my home. Growing up with the need to have an adult with me constantly drives away a lot of kids because who wants to hang out with a grown-up? Because of this, I was, and still am, mostly by myself the majority of the time. I am trying to get out more, but no car, or license for that matter, makes it more difficult.

I don’t want this post to be all negative, but I also want people to understand what life is like with a chronic illness, hence the reason for this entire blog. On a more positive note, I am so enjoying my time downtown Portsmouth and exploring my hometown. Being by myself makes me feel more independent and like an actual adult (although I question that sometimes because I DO NOT feel like an adult but the government says I am and we must follow whatever the government says, right? Yea no but whatever).

Quick random side note, I’m in Cup Of Joe and they are playing Nirvana and I’m living for it. Another side note, if you are looking for a local coffee shop, Cup of Joe is amazing and the interior is SO CUTE!!!!! Highly recommend.

Well, I am off to do more shopping with money I don’t have so which me luck! Have an amazing weekend Lovelies!!!!

As always, shine bright!